Wow

[disturbia]

Over the last few weeks my posts have grown less and less. And its been enjoyable. I just sit back and look at people arguing back and forth on an internet board and realize what a complete fuking retarded tool I must have been and appeared to be to sit on a message board and scream back and forth with nameless, faceless people that will have zero effect on my personal well being.  I only post positive now, and its gonna stay that way, its far more beneficial and relaxing. And it must have been noticed, because, lol, I got over 100 pm's from people asking me where have I been and  a lot, which I could never thank them enough for, from people supporting me in my training, eating and change of mannerism on the board. Again, I have stated I am bipolar and tend to swing moods once in a while, but now I couldn't be bothered 1% in life to come on a message board and post nonsensical drivel.

Anyways, no need to stretch this out, just my two cents.

[JimmyJam1974]

Whag is the over/under on this new outlook?

I sat 1.5 weeks. 

[clued-up]

I only post positive now

Well.... that’s fucking boring. 

[Rami]

Over the last few weeks my posts have grown less and less. And its been enjoyable. I just sit back and look at people arguing back and forth on an internet board and realize what a complete fuking retarded tool I must have been and appeared to be to sit on a message board and scream back and forth with nameless, faceless people that will have zero effect on my personal well being.  I only post positive now, and its gonna stay that way, its far more beneficial and relaxing. And it must have been noticed, because, lol, I got over 100 pm's from people asking me where have I been and  a lot, which I could never thank them enough for, from people supporting me in my training, eating and change of mannerism on the board. Again, I have stated I am bipolar and tend to swing moods once in a while, but now I couldn't be bothered 1% in life to come on a message board and post nonsensical drivel.

Anyways, no need to stretch this out, just my two cents.

I look at it this way, bipolar, OCD, manic, it's all benefits! Sometimes it can be hard on you though. Funny how one tend to forget that every time in between.

[disturbia]

Whag is the over/under on this new outlook?

I sat 1.5 weeks. 

its already been over 3, its just a case of I simply lost the desire to be that dickwad I was on here. Seeing other peoples (person) posting has made me realize just how sad and idiotic I appeared. I dont want to be that way.

[Fatpanda]

i am very glad you took my advice josh.

the 8 fold noble path is the way.

[Flexb]

Over the last few weeks my posts have grown less and less. And its been enjoyable. I just sit back and look at people arguing back and forth on an internet board and realize what a complete fuking retarded tool I must have been and appeared to be to sit on a message board and scream back and forth with nameless, faceless people that will have zero effect on my personal well being.  I only post positive now, and its gonna stay that way, its far more beneficial and relaxing. And it must have been noticed, because, lol, I got over 100 pm's from people asking me where have I been and  a lot, which I could never thank them enough for, from people supporting me in my training, eating and change of mannerism on the board. Again, I have stated I am bipolar and tend to swing moods once in a while, but now I couldn't be bothered 1% in life to come on a message board and post nonsensical drivel.

Anyways, no need to stretch this out, just my two cents.

Hey Josh, do you take anti-depressants? Just curious and not being a smart ass. I only ask because you state you're bi-polar and I'm sure have bouts with depression. I do also (get depressed) a lot but don't think I'm bi-polar, don't think anyway lol

[outby43]

Whag is the over/under on this new outlook?

I sat 1.5 weeks. 

 I am not sure when it will be but some drama will come up to distract.  A visit by dad, the ex wife, or twila...just a matter of time.  I hope not cuz I would like to see the dude succeed in getting back in shape and getting laid.

[Flexb]

its already been over 3, its just a case of I simply lost the desire to be that dickwad I was on here. Seeing other peoples (person) posting has made me realize just how sad and idiotic I appeared. I dont want to be that way.

I used to love arguing and getting into it years ago on other boards but it's too much work to keep up and much easier having a somewhat passive attitude in the internet world.

[Master Blaster]

Over the last few weeks my posts have grown less and less. And its been enjoyable. I just sit back and look at people arguing back and forth on an internet board and realize what a complete fuking retarded tool I must have been and appeared to be to sit on a message board and scream back and forth with nameless, faceless people that will have zero effect on my personal well being.  I only post positive now, and its gonna stay that way, its far more beneficial and relaxing. And it must have been noticed, because, lol, I got over 100 pm's from people asking me where have I been and  a lot, which I could never thank them enough for, from people supporting me in my training, eating and change of mannerism on the board. Again, I have stated I am bipolar and tend to swing moods once in a while, but now I couldn't be bothered 1% in life to come on a message board and post nonsensical drivel.

Anyways, no need to stretch this out, just my two cents.

I was kinda enjoying the older meaner version of you. 

[Fatpanda]

you should join me at:

[buffdnet]

i'm positive you can't fool me when your off your meds
but may i suggest you may consider doing as i do.
and that's following the way of frank r.i.p.
some are born to lead, some are born to follow
the others like me are born to live my way.
i dare to be different i never follow the crowd

[Deicide]

you should join me at:

You're polluting his thread with your crap.

[SgtSpar]

you should join me at:

Honestly, you are just tiring.

[disturbia]

i am very glad you took my advice josh.

the 8 fold noble path is the way.

Im gonna respond to you once and once only. Yeah, it was you that made me realize what an asswipe I was. I don't want to be anything like you, and with my threatening, rude, loudmouth and idiotic posts I was nearly exactly like you. And that made me open up my eyes and realize enough was enough. And then when you commented on w8m8 driving into a wall at 65 mph that drew a similarity to what I had said to newmom once about here kid, and I remembered after I had said that I was sick to my stomach over saying it because I immediately knew it had crossed a line and I was soooooo wrong.

You're a mean mean heartless person, you take pride in belittling others and you go to a level beyond a message board. Yes, it is you I give credit to for realizing, just like the day I quit drinking 16 years ago, that I needed to quit posting in an angry non caring rude filthy manner. And because i am on getbig so much, just like my evil posting carried out into real life anger and bad attitude, my more relaxed manner on here has carried forth to a quieter, happier and more content me and a more physically and mentally fit me.

You say you are a buddhist. I wont say I know jack about buddhism, but I will lay odds that they would never ever ever tell someone to drive into a wall like their parents did or say the stuff that you put from keyboard to screen. Ever.  It's only been a few weeks of me being calmer, but thats 20 days and 23 hours longer than my past record, and I feel good about stretching it into a long long time.

So ya fatpanda, you can take the credit for this change, but absolutely not in the way you think. My goal is to be 0% of what you are. Because then I know I will be a better person

[Fatpanda]

  2 posts hahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahahahahaha

[disturbia]

Hey Josh, do you take anti-depressants? Just curious and not being a smart ass. I only ask because you state you're bi-polar and I'm sure have bouts with depression. I do also (get depressed) a lot but don't think I'm bi-polar, don't think anyway lol

ya I have been on paxil and epival for 13 years. In 13 years I only have missed 2 days. Depression wasnt my issue, it was the anger. And that was something that I needed to work on with my attitude, which I am trying to.

[Deicide]

Im gonna respond to you once and once only. Yeah, it was you that made me realize what an asswipe I was. I don't want to be anything like you, and with my threatening, rude, loudmouth and idiotic posts I was nearly exactly like you. And that made me open up my eyes and realize enough was enough. And then when you commented on w8m8 driving into a wall at 65 mph that drew a similarity to what I had said to newmom once about here kid, and I remembered after I had said that I was sick to my stomach over saying it because I immediately knew it had crossed a line and I was soooooo wrong.

You're a mean mean heartless person, you take pride in belittling others and you go to a level beyond a message board. Yes, it is you I give credit to for realizing, just like the day I quit drinking 16 years ago, that I needed to quit posting in an angry non caring rude filthy manner. And because i am on getbig so much, just like my evil posting carried out into real life anger and bad attitude, my more relaxed manner on here has carried forth to a quieter, happier and more content me and a more physically and mentally fit me.

You say you are a buddhist. I wont say I know jack about buddhism, but I will lay odds that they would never ever ever tell someone to drive into a wall like their parents did or say the stuff that you put from keyboard to screen. Ever.  It's only been a few weeks of me being calmer, but thats 20 days and 23 hours longer than my past record, and I feel good about stretching it into a long long time.

So ya fatpanda, you can take the credit for this change, but absolutely not in the way you think. My goal is to be 0% of what you are. Because then I know I will be a better person

Even at your worst, you were never like Fatpanda.

[buffdnet]

why why does any of you here give a flying fuck
what we think of one another.
be a man. take their best shot but don't be one who kneels. do it your way.
else move here and become an obama bot.
life will be just as meaningless.
seriously

[JimmyJam1974]

Next Avesher show must be boring??

Taming the neighbors cookies & shit

[The True Adonis]

"Learn to unconcern yourself
With that beyond control
It's a complicated lesson
To simplify your soul"

[Sir Bigness]

Over the last few weeks my posts have grown less and less. And its been enjoyable. I just sit back and look at people arguing back and forth on an internet board and realize what a complete fuking retarded tool I must have been and appeared to be to sit on a message board and scream back and forth with nameless, faceless people that will have zero effect on my personal well being.  I only post positive now, and its gonna stay that way, its far more beneficial and relaxing. And it must have been noticed, because, lol, I got over 100 pm's from people asking me where have I been and  a lot, which I could never thank them enough for, from people supporting me in my training, eating and change of mannerism on the board. Again, I have stated I am bipolar and tend to swing moods once in a while, but now I couldn't be bothered 1% in life to come on a message board and post nonsensical drivel.

Anyways, no need to stretch this out, just my two cents.

ya I have been on paxil and epival for 13 years. In 13 years I only have missed 2 days. Depression wasnt my issue, it was the anger. And that was something that I needed to work on with my attitude, which I am trying to.

Why do you post personal things about yourself on here?? You just ask for shit!!

[disturbia]

Even at your worst, you were never like Fatpanda.

nicest thing anyone has ever said to me on here 

[Fatpanda]

josh, i thought you were a more caring truthful person ?

explain why you just made up i told w8m8 to drive into a wall and kill herself ?

if you can post a quote that says that ron can delete my account.

we have been through this time and time again - you are my subordinate in every facet of life, lies are your only defence to my posts, and everytime you use them i smile as i know you have nothing else  

also please explain why you called dk's wife a whore ?

p.s. how are you enjoying being back staying with your mom ?

[Fatpanda]

ya I have been on paxil and epival for 13 years. In 13 years I only have missed 2 days. Depression wasnt my issue, it was the anger. And that was something

true, hitting women isn't very peaceful