I hear ya man, shit is tempting sometimes, I got a few friends who jumped extremely in strength levels after a cycle and got big.
I think to myself that it has to be a sucky feeling to know you only lifted that because you're on.
Got a friend who offered me testo enathate the other day, told him naw maybe some other time.
Most of my friends used to be on gear too.
Most of them made amazing gains, but also I saw some of them get side effects.
One of them went bald at age 22. And now he's off gear and he also lost almost all the muscle too.
One of them got bitch tits and had to get surgery.
One of them got horrible acne that left him with huge acne scars.
Others got combinations of these things. Some of them looked all redfaced and unhealthy.
It made me not want to mess with it. But I think they were going pretty high dose.