As a natty I totally agree with you. Competing as a natural is a waste and you look like complete shite. Chris Faildo is/was the exception to the rule but I'm inclined to believe he had more needle pokes in his glutes than Bob had dicks up his arse. The only way a natural looks good is to maintain a 8-12% bodyfat level and get as big as possible. Which is basically what I'm doing. I toyed with the idea of competing but didn't fancy dieting for 16 weeks only to come in small and soft anyway.
I competed in various UNtested shows with/without drugs and even a few natural contests ( no drugs obviously).
Once you realize you love bodybuilding but won't be an IFBB pro, you do it for yourself.
The most personal satisfaction I got was from getting in regional UNtested NPC shows and doing well without drugs.
Granted I use Androgel now, but at 52 my test levels were low.
I would love to see if I could beat a few guys 20 yrs younger without anything more powerful then the Androgel.
So for me now,the motivation to stay on my diet is to compete and PLACE in an open regional UNtested NPC meet this fall.
Admire and watch the pros but do your own BB thing YOUR way.