i find i can deal with the whole day everday and not have any long issues with the day cause im occupied. but its the moments at any time of day when i can feel helpless or hopeless when looking at the perspective of life in existance. i can see it being strong enough at times too to a point where i theorize this is what kills people in doses over time giving rize to cancer/heart attacks ect
i beleive one in a relationship can feel hopeless aswell at times because of not fucking other hoes but also like i said before the simple perspective of life in existance , and existance for a long period of time, if thought about in doses throughout the day, is how we fuck up ourselves. i guess it will never stop but i am thankfull that 90 percent of everyday is thought of in a good way or just unnoticable cause im busy
on a fitness note i set up my heavy bag and do some mad punches on it while i drink beer and sweat like crazy in the carolina humdity