On Monday 18th July 2011, @JessFit said:
Dear friends,
Instead of answering individual messages or posts, it is with a heavy heart that I am addressing the fact that you may have heard (or will be hearing) that Peter and I are in the process of finalizing our divorce. I would never feel the need to explain something so personal if we didn’t have so many great supporters that I feel obligated to.
I wanted to make a single statement to all of our incredible friends and supporters.
My obligation lies in the fact that Peter and I have openly professed our faith and I cannot let those that know that we made a vow, promise, and covenant before God think that we gave up or that it just didn’t work out… That is far from the truth.
Without going into detail, I will say that over an extended period of our marriage there were inappropriate relationships between my husband and other women. Recently a full blown adulterous affair was committed and he continues to pursue that, instead of our marriage.
I feel the need to state the obvious…I have been far from a perfect wife and take ownership of the fact that I have a lot of things that I need to work on, but biblically none would have been reasons, or excuses for an affair or a divorce.
I have fought for my marriage because I love my husband; believe that marriage is for life, and that God blesses that union. There comes a point, though, when one has to let go. I was given no choice when things became so unhealthy.
I trust that God is working through this very difficult time in my life. I know this because I received a word from Him that not only comforted me, but possibly changed my life forever. I will leave you with that word:
*I was told by the pastor that married Peter and I (Pastor Michael Wenger
http://www.strongholdministries.com) that the Lord spoke to him and told him that I should take a pen and piece of paper and write, not think about what I was writing but let the Holy Spirit guide me. He said that God would speak to me.
I was nervous about doing this, but I took his word and began to write…I started off feeling cautious and over thinking things, but all of a sudden my hand started to fly over the paper and before I knew it I was done writing, but I had no clue what I had just written.
This is what I wrote:
"March on.
You are a soldier and warrior of God and you will lead others and be an inspiration.
You have SO much more to give and you have been held back.
Gifts have been given to you and you must serve.
I am God.
Trust
Trust"
You may not believe in God, but I know in my heart, mind, soul, and the very depth of my being that this was a direct message from God. He said, “I am God”!!!
As Pastor Mike said, “some people go their whole lives without hearing God in such an amazing way, but the God of the universe was gracious enough to speak to you in this miraculous way".
This will forever change me and I know He is watching over me. I hope and pray my story will touch your hearts and you will consider getting to know this amazing and powerful God that is comforting and walking me through one of the hardest times in my life.
I ask for your prayers and thank you for all of your love and support.
In Him,
Jessica
