johnny, stop chasing societies imprinted outcome they have pre planned for you for their maximum benefit, you steady worker paying taxes into the system while being married knocking up your wife multiple times and buying things you cannot afford while paying apr rates on top of that.
Go out, fuck hoes, buy hoes for the night, live how you want to live, stop reading magazines, stop listening to tv shows, and you will stop chasing a dream that is not yours, that is being brainwashed into you.