In other words, I wish you would have the courage to admit the obvious, but what will happen to you tomorrow?
You must face all those who share your philosophy and tell them that you have changed. Philosophically speaking, you will have to come out of the closet. At this point in your life, that is out of the question.
But that's just half of it. The other half would be abandoning the false comfort you've acquired.
lol. Absurd. I'm entirely comfortable with my beliefs. Assuming I were to "change" what I believe in, I don't have to justify what I believe or don't believe to anyone. I don't have to explain anything to friends, family, etc. That's what happens when you have an independent mind.
When someone has doubts about who they are, or what they believe, lack self-confidence, etc. they often attack those with differing viewpoints. That's actually what the atheist movements is all about: attacking those who believe in God.
Someone who is truly comfortable with whatever it is they believe, doesn't need to riducle those who think a different way, or believe in different things. I have a number of atheist and agnostic friends who are like this. They are smart people, who feel good about themselves, and don't spend time fussing about things they dont' believe in.