Everyone has a history. You cannot change what you did in the past. Don't forget your past, but don't dwell on it either. Each new day brings you the opportunity to be the best you can be. Do that, and you won't need to worry about the future.
From what you write, you give the impression that you believe all you have to offer is your body. Compliments can be an ego booster. The ego boost you think you get from strangers with ulterior motives fades as quickly as you spend their money, unfortunately. Meaningful compliments from people you actually care something about you and who you care about can change your life.
Like I said before, you are still young. You have a lot of living in front of you. Make it count for something. Nothing worth having is easy, BTW.
i dont dwell in da past , im saying if you got no money and what to be a monster no matters what
, your sale either steroid or your body , with a salary you be small
it' turn easier then i thought , loneliness n sadness of others bring money, if smart about it ,, it's easy it' what you need anw
10 meal a day , sleep 12 hours on gh , serono at 1000$ a kit , how th fuck you can hav a normal job unless you sleep in a crack hole which i wont
you just need to accept that your girlfriend will be escort but quick money making only work if love partner in same field or it just plain boring
in canada they slap your hand for steroid trafficking , with a sugar daddy you got th cashdown to buy shitload of raw product n start makin th real money ,, and once that done , you go in grey area legal business n delegate
and grow not working,, doin nothing , beside fucking , eating , sleeping ,,,
that th bodybuilding life it doesnt matter from where it start from my book , the now matters
because now bbing , genetic help , but money is first , kits after kits , relentless spending will bring size