not sure if you answered already, but why were you with her? 
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Stems from my childhood. Would rather not get into it, really. Short story. Have verbally abusive parents who's own marriage is a trainwreck, etc., etc. Really thought I could prove them wrong, etc., etc. I don't take failure well. I just don't. I think you can connect the dots, my friend. :/ Plus, she was awesome the majority of the time. A freak in the bed, but also a girl you could take out in public. She just had real nasty mood swings, man. Real nasty. And, like most women, she would suck my cock, swallow my load, and I'd forget everything that happened.