I understand 
well anyway kudos to you and raymondo.. you both may think that I have a fucked up mind as raymondo said himself
, but just like david chappelle said; "They are not crazy people, they are smart indeviduals, maby the environment is a little sick"
I wasn't referring to you.
If anything I think you've got a young mind.
You just think too much, which is unavoidable because you're somewhat intelligent.
I too, was like that a decade ago.
