Growing up poor as absolute fuck really humbled me. Couldn't afford more than a pair of boxers and wore the same clothes for years. I used to stay home from school when my clothes stunk and I didn't have anything else to wear. People might ask why I never just washed those clothes and it was because we hardly even had enough fucking laundry detergent to go around.
My parents never had enough money to feed my brothers and I so I just never ate. My mom was an anorexic and didn't eat much so her guilt about eating probably rubbed off on me and I felt like I was taking away from my younger brothers. Developed a public phobia with eating because we couldn't afford good food and I still have problems eating at work. I'm like a fucking Iron Chef now and people always wait to see what I'm going to eat at work and sometimes I start to sweat over it. But it's all good now because I've got nothing to be embarrassed about. Hell, people beg me to bring them a lunch too and have even offered to pay, but stuff like that sticks with you.
I graduated at around 105lbs at a height of 5'8". Part of it was because I got braces but I was only 115lbs before the braces. A stroke of luck occurred when my dad scored a huge insurance settlement from a motorcycle accident. And I imagine he had a lot of guilt and shame so we went to the orthdontist, he slammed down $10,000 in cash and told them to fix his boy's teeth. I had canines that didn't come in properly and a lot of crowding so I also grew up never smiling. I was the funniest kid at school but never dared to crack a smile for fear people would see my teeth. I got bugged once in elementary school when they came in and that was the last day I smiled until I got braces, I shit you not. No one ever questioned me. I was just the hard ass who was the one who belted out jokes but never laughed at one.
Now I'm only 25 with a brand new house and a wife that's on her way to being a nurse with no student debts, so I'm doing well financially. But money is something that has taught me a lot of very valuable lessons. You can have all the money in the world one day or no money the next. I try to not let it control me but make sure I've also got enough to let myself and my wife live comfortably and without fear. Money was the root cause of a lot of misery for me growing up, but without that miserable environment I never would have had the opportunity to grow. If I was born into money I wouldn't have learned all those hard lessons and saw all the negative stuff in the world that now helps to illustrate how beautiful life can be. Now I've got perfect teeth too and I smile all the time. I've got a physique that everyone is envious about but I don't walk around like a pompous ass. I help people that aren't satisfied with their bodies and help them to feel comfortable while they work towards their goals. Other douches always laughed when I went to them for advices, and now those phaggots don't make any more progress and come to ME for advices.
If some 30 year old fucker at McDonalds feels bad when I come in there wearing nice clothes or whatever I shoot the shit and say something to lighten the atmosphere. I'm no better than him. He might have lost a very successful company in a bad business transaction. Or he might have been a "loser" his entire life who never amounted to anything but has a wife and kids who adore him more than anyone else in the world for sucking it up and working overtime at a fast food joint that's the butt of millions of jokes. I don't fucking judge. If someone gives me a thimble of respect I'll give him all the rest I possibly can without self sacrifice. If it's within my power I'll bend over backwards for just about anyone as long as it's no detriment to my own health and well being. I've met a lot of miserable and seedy fuckers, as well as very kind and compassionate ones. I've changed so much physically and mentally in my short time on this earth and I'm very humble because of what I've learned first hand.
I've seen rape, torture and even saw someone get murdered (I technically closed my eyes but I was within 10' of a shooting and had bloody clothes). I've also witnessed women given birth, people walking for the first time after a severe medical tragedy, grown ups finally learning how to read and ex-junkies celebrate after years of sobriety. Life is a crazy mother fucker and I never take anything for granted. Tomorrow I might lose my home, my wife might get raped and murdered and my family might die in a tragic accident so I love everyone as strongly as I can and, as faggy as it sounds, cherish everything as much as possible.
It's my aim to go through life being that nice, funny fucker who brought smiles to faces, gave out good advices and never made anyone feel hurt mentally or physically. I can't save the world but the direct lives that I interact with, I hope to have left a positive memory and maybe something else that will help that person. There's enough bullshit in this world and I make sure not to add to people's bullshit. I have no right to fuck around negatively with the lives of others. Only on the internet am I going to razz people the way I sometimes do, but that comes with the territory. You need to have thick skin and humongous, intimidating testicles to roam around on a site like Getbig and what I do helps to build character. If people crumble when I make fun of them, they need to toughen up. In real life I'm a bit more forgiving, but on the internet you need to expect that the next hyperlink you click has scatporn or male-on-male ass fucking action or something equally disturbing.
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