I know he's very very dedicated, I mean the man would leave bday party to go to the gym (real story) but in one of his vids where he trained chest he said something like "I dont know why am I doing this, am I doing this for my wife? No. My daughter? No. She doesn't care how her dad looks or what he does" etc he just sounded lost, in his words - not just in his looks.
Anyways hope he's alright and will kick some ass. Btw last year at flex pay attention how he looks on those pics like he saw a ghost or something
You ‘ve clearly
never been shredded to the bone (I'm talking striated glutes etc.) for weeks and weeks building up to a bodybuilding contest. it's no bed of roses! It fucks with your head, your body and mind will fight you, sometimes you will question your own sanity, Why you are going through this suffering and is doing this even worth it etc. Pro BB aren't bullet proof, they're still human. I guarantee they have their self-doubts, emotional ups and downs from time to time just like you and me.
Food deprivation can sometimes make you get very philosophical & thought patterns become very out there..e.g. like in that video of Kai with his bloodshot eye. A lot of bodybuilders get like this. I think it's because your body and mind sense you are in a way dying, so you can start to get all spiritual, it's weird. I believe that's one of the reasons why monks and holy men fast, to bring on this state of mind.
When you get really low body fat it can be uncomfortable at times (no padding) you don't sleep well, you get anxiety/moody sometimes, you have massive swings in emotion from feeling on top of the world to feeling like death warmed up. Sometimes you feel like you are the only person in the world doing this, an outsider, selfish, alone.
it's not always like this, but in the end, during the hard part of prep it can be. There is no easy way, it's hard and that's how it should be.
After the contest when he's eaten some good food, celebrated, reconnected again...all is forgotten. (This drive is human nature - to forget the bad and remember the good)..and then he'll start to plan for the next contest and do it all over again...