So, if you knew all this ran in your family, why did you continually use drugs, that would hurt you? Why continue with the lifestyle? Did the money you get from dancing around in thongs for men trump your health? So, now you are on dialysis, all due to you whoring yourself out, did you do any self reflecting while you were in the hospital?
And why the fuck would you propose so damn early---is this to keep her around to take care of you? Man, you really are a piece of garbage.
And I hope this new woman in your life learns of all the gay for pay, and all the sordid things you did to wind up in the hospital...