a dead end life where you exist and die. that cuts short before all overstanding
id rather experience the middle hell
Huh? What the hell is "middle hell" and what does "overstanding" mean? I suspect you are deliberately trying to be confusing here.
Either way, I don't believe in hell or for that matter heaven either. "Ashes to ashes and dust to dust" is my motto. One thing that this philosophy invokes is the real need to live life to the fullest in the here and now, "living in the moment," as they say....because it is very likely all you are going to ever experience. Living life well as you go is very rewarding; living life for some future punishment or reward is, in my opinion, simply existing until you die.