thanks man
Your first lesson is to not listen to anything Sir Duchaine has to say, he's a racist moron who could give a shit if he led you to your own grave..
Your second is that Orals can be
very dangerous if you don't know what you are doing, you should really focus on injectables, mainly Test... Try 500mg for 8-12 weeks and read up on PCT before you start.
Once you get used to the needles the fear will go away...