I honestly don't think anyone HATES you, you are just a seriously seriously misguided young man. And look man if you put up pictures of yourself looking like a downs syndrome with bells palsy then you must expect critique. I think tbh you will end up killing yourself within a few years but I wish u turn it all around, stop getting rode by black men, all men actually, lose a few stone and start building again properly, move back home and try get your father to get you into the fire service even part-time