Been on HRT for about a year now, although just recently got my levels really stabilized. Protocol is 125mg of cyp per week, 500iu hcg, and 0.25mg adex every 12 days. This protocol brings my test levels to 1200 and an estradiol of ~50.
Downside to my blood work has always been my cholesterol, even before HRT. My total cholesterol hit 90 at one point. Since then, I've been able to bring it up to 141 with an LDL of 91 and HDL of 36 (this HDL shit is hard to budge).
Anyway, I've also been lifting seriously for 4.5 years as a natural (sitting at 5'11 212lbs @ ~12-14%) and never really thought about using anything until I was put on HRT. Now I'm interested in blasting with 500mg of test-e as a first 'cycle'. Two things hold me back currently:
1) How much worse will my cholesterol profile get if I blasted for 12 weeks with 500mg of test? Is it too dangerous with my levels?
2) I see people on the boards talking about the addictive 'god-like' feeling of being 'on', does a moderate test dose really induce a euphoric feeling like that? I guess it's sort of unnerving to think I may be willingly introducing an addiction to myself like that and be looking for test amps for years to come to not only hold onto physical gains, but to hold onto that mental security. Opinions on the mental side of this?
3) What's a realistic expectation for the amount of mass gained on cycle you can maintain on levels of ~1200 year round?