Been sober for two months drunk as shit right now. It gets better, not only have I relasped but my closest friend I found out tonight has a drinking problem worst than mine.
Classic alcoholic thinking....
1-Deflecting your friend's "worse" alcohol problem off your own
2- Mistaking 2 months putting a cork on the bottle with sobriety. They are not the same.
Sobriety is someone who has actually "stopped" drinking one day at a time or whatever floats your boat, and works,learns and puts into action living life in reality, where as someone who "quits" basically sits on the fence basically doing dick to change their whole lifestyle basically waiting for that next event good or bad that they could use as an excuse to have "one" again.
I have lived both sides and the difference in quality of life could not be more extreme.
Look, I don't care how much you drink, but if you find before and/or after you are questioning, justifying, and/or deflecting your life in regards to you behaviours with or without alcohol well you can figue out the rest.
If so I may suggest getting some help of some sort, and not just "stop" drinking but realize you are going to have to work on changing all your behaviours and attitude, not just stick a cork on the bottle and sit on you ass and expect your life to change totally.
Not saying go to AA( whiich has success for those who work and live the steps as outlined, not just sit in meetings and be part of the debating club), but that is one option and there are other support groups and communities,medical, religious and otherwise that work for people as well.
Either way if you don't change the behaviours, attitudes you have and the situations you put yourself in, you are just going to continue to fall down and live life as a miserable dry drunk,which I can tell you from my own experience and others around me, was a much more miserable experience than falling down and getting drunk over and over.
A few guys have offered an ear here to you that have been through it, you won't lose anything by talking with them offline or via pm.
...getting off my soapbox now