Just push through it and accept the fact that you are better looking and stronger than 95% of the US male population. Hell, just working out will set you apart from most people. "Normal" nowadays can be interpreted in two ways - skinnyfat, or plain skinny. You are neither; you are strong, powerful, good looking and although you seem to lack confidence, telling yourself the things i'm telling you now will fix that. You don't need exogenous testosterone or HGH. Just mindpower. Stop comparing yourself to gymrats.