I had a similar awakening recently.
After unsuccessfully praying and hoping and yearning for a childfree mate for three years and getting incredibly emotionally maligned by the lack thereof, I think I've turned the corner and God is finally "taking the cup" from me. The days of envying couples at the movie theater and mulling over Christian Mingle are over. After reading various threads on websites like MGTOW forums and hearing some witty audio clips from the great Tom Leykis, I'm starting to realize that tne vast majority of women aren't worth this much effort and stress.
I made a small fortune when I dumped all my 1,000 shares of Netflix stock a few months back, and financial security is nice. Marriage would put one hell of a dent in it. I bought a nice silver 2008 Mustang a week ago and I wanna make the trip to Glacier Park that I've been thinking of for the past few years. Life is good. So is being a red-blooded American Christian man.
MGTOW forever!