fucking diuretics man. horrible shit. it's not the juice or the lifestyle that ends these guys it's the satellite compounds like diuretics, painkillers, and stimulants.
you can live a balanced healthy life and have a great physique with the right approach to eating and anabolic usage.
there is very definitely a mental disorder that is latent or is created in otherwise 'normal' people once they start to seriously train and have done so for some time. the key is finding balance and not succumbing to the pull of whatever disorder that the lifestyle has created. most cannot find this middle ground. it's not even at the 'Luke wood' level of things- women who train for physique / fitness carry such disorders long after competing and just average gym rats all seem to fall prey to such things.
Diuretics - check
Anadrolona - check
Quick pump session - check
Nipples tweaked? - check
Time to hit the beach!

Totally neurotic. Getting into a regimen of constantly pinning, taking pills, calculating injection and dosing times along with tweaking them, scheduling, prepping and eating meals, adjusting meal times, training (last and probably least)... that's a surefire recipe for disaster. No mention of the psychological affects of all those androgens too.
Like I always said, I'm calm as fuck but with tren in my system I can feel a bit snappy. I never act on my aggression and it never comes to the surface to where people can see it. But I can feel these Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde feelings buried deep down that fuck with my head. I joke around about trenbologna suicide but I really do think it fucks with your head. I'd caution guys to not stay on it for too long. I've battled depression on and off for years and despite hard times like friends and family dying or getting diagnosed with terminal illnesses, nothing persistently fucks me up the way tren does. Hands down favorite compound and I smile 24/7 when my abs get carved deeper and deeper, but I'm definitely operating with a screw loose especially if I run more than 100mg EOD. I have no shame in admitting that. It's a strange compound.