Why do you guys talk shit? This is only one year of training, and it's not even consistent.
Because his attitude during that year stinks and everything* he says he has done says he has no patience and won't last, with training. The dude went off gear and training because he was on holiday, think a person like that will last? "I'm not big now - I'll take more!"? Heh
*everything, that is, except admitting what he's done and what he was feeling - which is commendable and shows he might be maturing in his mindset.
I'm all about practical knowledge and experience none of this scientific study on mice with low dose test bullshit. I won't tout myself as an expert I haven't earned that right yet but I will say I'll be happy to help anyone with questions via pm so feel free to fire away. I actually like to help and I can be very in depth.
Right now, I wouldn't tout you as anything but a cautionary tale. You've basically ignored all practical knowledge in bodybuilding. Patience, being careful and stay committed. All violated.
I respect your candour, though.