You were addicted to opiates (or is it opiods) right? How did you get off?
I went from nubain to torbugesic (much stronger mg per mg) when the supply/production of nubain was cut (years ago, i'm unaware if or when production of nubain was restarted). I used a high dose of temgesic for 5 days, and 10 days at a half-dose.. starting on the 12th day or so I added ultram at about 200mg/day. I decreased the ultram by 50mg/day every 2 weeks after that until it was zero. Also used 10mg valium IV at night to sleep the first couple weeks along with 5mg valium once or twice a day for a few weeks.. then down to 10mg valium orally and 5mg when waking up for a couple weeks. I see absolutely zero "fun" in valium (or any benzo) and used it for the anxiety, which is the absolute worst part of opiate withdrawl (along with the 'skin crawling'). so after a couple months I was off everything, but the psychological withdrawl remained for months afterwards. I did try smoking weed (the weakest stuff I could find) a few times to help with anxiety during the day, but I was unimpressed with it.
I helped a few people get off nubain using my 'technique' and had a nice big thread on 'bolex before their server crashed... it might be possible to find in on Google still... also had a big thread cached on bluelight.nu on getting off nubain.
we're bbers, and we train hard and do what others can't to look the way others don't, so we should be immune to lapses in "willpower" right? lol... that's what I thought when I started 'bain. I was a young kid who didn't drink or get high, but was introduced to 'bain by a fairly well-known bbing/fitness model (who was an employee, and turned out very quickly to be a fucking loser. lol)... I figured, 'well, if he uses it and says it's ok.. and the PDR says it's not addictive, maybe it's not as bad as they say'. lol.. oh well, live and learn, I suppose.