well not very courageous but hey as long at it finally makes you feel better about the whole thing. It's what it's all about right? Obviously some people dont care about courage and honor etc and just want to feel better.
Courage and honor is meaningless in war....all that matters is winning and losing. The military teaches you to kill without mercy in battle.
I was a computer geek in school but most people didn't want to fight me because I fought dirty....kick to the groin, gouge the eyes, throw dirt or mud in their face, pick up a rock, brick, or sharp object, pencil etc......I did whatever it took to win the fight. Nothing different here.
Derek is dying but isn't dead so the battle is still on.