forgot how brutal the insomnia was when restarting high dose test (high dose aas in general).
at least the anxiety is gone.. only lasted a few days this time, although I was only 'off' for a month or so.
ran 3200 enan and 1600 deca a couple weeks ago, then only another 1200 enan and 1200 deca a week later (due to the fact I'm still shooting poorly filtered Enan... first Nalgene filter developed a hole when filtering the enan, and then made the mistake of trying a Rousch Autofil with a plastic receiver and cracked the fucking receiver at only 5psi and I'm out of Whatman syringe filters.. so I just shot more the the poorly filtered shit..... my Whatman ZapCap's will be here Monday though, so i'll be good to go... this is personal-use 400mg/ml shit.. not retail 250/300 stuff, btw.)
anyways.... I'm pretty sure the flu I had was due in part to my body fighting off whatever wasn't filtered out of the enan... already depressed immune and such..... back to the insomnia.
past couple days the size and fullness has started to snowball, as i believe the deca is kicking in... but so has the insomnia... not quite like tren insomnia, where you still lay there and like 1/2 sleep and wake up like you've had a regular night sleep (for me anyways)... now I'm not even tired at night... was up till 630am today and fell right into a quick REM sleep (crazy dream.. i never dream anymore) then i wake up at 9am and try to fall back asleep till noon and 'wake up' feeling like i have a hangover
but still not really tired.... feel like a fucking tweaker.
