i swear since my first days as natural delusionite
i never felt comfortable with the idea
i would eat for a few days and think "what if i get fat holy fuck" and give up on the bulking idea instantly
i still feel this way and cant do it more than 2-3 days before i change my mind and dont want to do it anymoree
fuck
it's such a mind fuck and is it even real 
Yes it can be a mindfuck until you`ve trained for eons, then realize that bulking is just a term used by fat fuckers, who simply use the term as an excuse to eat shitty,in an effort to "BULK" up,which translated literally means turns out to gaining excess fat and hiding any muscle they had to begin with.
Excess calories turn into fat or are excreted by the body,enhanced or not,this is a fact.
It`s always best to build small amounts of lean tissue over time,then you`ll always look great.
You may not notice size gains as much,but others will as evidenced by the pic you posted here bro.
You`re definately bigger and leaner than Hell,but,you did not get fat in the process!
Progress is not measured on the scale,unless you are lean and any added bodyweight is lean tissue.
Sorry about the rant!
