by the way of course Im not embarrassed. I barely have a shred of sanity, why would i care what I post.
A defense fucking mechanism if I've ever seen one.
I honestly can't imagine how badly you hurt inside when you're not "psycho" off the meds.
You use that as an excuse to "act out".
I would straight up seriously consider driving to Regina to give you a hug and say "Josh....you are loved."...if I thought it would make a difference.