Do you genuinely care about living long?
I am always battling this dilemma, I feel great when on cycle although I use very conservative cycles, when on I feel like I am living my life to the fullest, getting the most out of my physique and all the positive mental boost this gives me reflects in all other areas of my life, work, the way I invest money, paryty life, women....etc, but my BP is higher albeit still in normal range and I know that my body is putting the pedal down more than normal and over the long term this no doubt has a life shortening effect that's if nothing goes wrong way before then.
When off I feel cleansed and relaxed and content, but life just seems to be cruising on 2nd gear and at time I lose the thrill and excitement of life, but then would I regeret it if I developed some serious illness in my 40's and end up like Matarazzo or Shaun Dinausaurs, Tom Prince...etc with a poor quality of life way lower than the average healthy male without juice.