It's obv to me now I can't handle kids worth a shit. I can't seem to get any cardio done in the morning and revolving my schedule around multiple kids is too taxing on me to get to the gym. so problem solved, my gf who was 200lbs @ 5'8 when I met her... is now 272lbs and blames me for her being depressed and eating food all night playing video games (fuck, do I ever hate video games).
So being smarter than last time we broke up, I horded cash money at my relative's place and she never knew about it. so now she threw me out and I have a nice pile of money to land on.
Now it being obv I can't deal with kids, and i'm 32 next month, so it's pretty obv I won't be in relationships much. so its just no strings sex. I don't drink anymore, in AA, it works for me. I do however, go to a vapor lounge. so here I can meet girls and smoke weed.
As for BB related. I now have all the time in the world to train. Very excited. Am going to do what someone told me on here and just devote a whole year to eating right and lifting heavy. complete body transformation.
Am thinking, for a self esteem boost, doing a show next year. I use trt doses and unless I get a source i'm just gonna do it on that dose. I don't care if I win, I just want to look my best...... and slay pussy