Author Topic: I have taken my last drink for the next 4 days. This is my road to semi sobriety (Read 28014 times)

King Shizzo · « **on:** April 06, 2014, 04:15:48 AM »

I am tired of being held hostage by alcohol. I just took my last drink. I needed to make a thread to hold myself accountable. Also because Getbig knows more about my alcoholism, than my family does.

Starting from 7:00 A.m. eastern time, I will log my trials with staying clean.

I am scared. I have heard of the horror stories of withdrawls.

If I stop posting in this thread, I am either in the hospital, or I am dead.

I will give you guys updates to how I am feeling. I will win, unless my body betrays me.

TrueGrit · « **Reply #1 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:21:41 AM »

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Purge_WTF · « **Reply #2 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:21:58 AM »

Good decision, bro. I'll pray for you.

panos32 · « **Reply #3 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:23:20 AM »

if you keep alcohol around it would be very dangerous for you to give in and go gulp a couple bottles.

i would say take some preventantive measures (throw the booze away) and have someone knowing of the situation that can put up with any upcoming hysteric episode.

good luck

King Shizzo · « **Reply #4 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:28:10 AM »

Quote from: panos32 on April 06, 2014, 04:23:20 AM

if you keep alcohol around it would be very dangerous for you to give in and go gulp a couple bottles.

i would say take some preventantive measures and have someone knowing of the situation that can put up with any upcoming hysteric episode.

good luck

I have no alcohol around at the moment. I can regularly go 16-18 hours without a drink. That is how I survive the work week. I think I might hit a wall at the 36-48 hour mark though.

I always find a way to drink someting within a 24 hour period. That stops now.

freespirit · « **Reply #5 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:31:22 AM »

Very good:

_aj_ · « **Reply #6 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:32:07 AM »

How much per week of sobriety is Joon paying you?

King Shizzo · « **Reply #7 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:39:34 AM »

My first test will be later this afternoon. I almost always visit my parents on sundays. And on most sundays I try to make sure that I leave in time to go to the liquor store before 6 p.m. (closing time)

The first test: do I turn left towards the liquor store, or do I turn right to go home?

freespirit · « **Reply #8 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:41:23 AM »

d0nny2600 · « **Reply #9 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:42:13 AM »

Quote from: Shizzo on April 06, 2014, 04:39:34 AM

My first test will be later this afternoon. I almost always visit my parents on sundays. And on most sundays I try to make sure that I leave in time to go to the liquor store before 6 p.m. (closing time)

The first test: do I turn left towards the liquor store, or do I turn right to go home?

Are you a Beer or spirits drinker

King Shizzo · « **Reply #10 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:43:11 AM »

Quote from: d0nny2600 on April 06, 2014, 04:42:13 AM

Are you a Beer or spirits drinker

Mostly vodka. Rarely ever drink beer.

Rascal full · « **Reply #11 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:43:52 AM »

How much do you drink on average a day Shizzo?

Mr Nobody · « **Reply #12 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:44:33 AM »

Quote from: Shizzo on April 06, 2014, 04:39:34 AM

My first test will be later this afternoon. I almost always visit my parents on sundays. And on most sundays I try to make sure that I leave in time to go to the liquor store before 6 p.m. (closing time)

The first test: do I turn left towards the liquor store, or do I turn right to go home?

You will probably find yourself leaving early today due to anxiety to give yourself enough time to back out should you go home and want to go back to the store. Alcohol tricks the mind as you know.

King Shizzo · « **Reply #13 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:47:23 AM »

Quote from: Rascal full on April 06, 2014, 04:43:52 AM

How much do you drink on average a day Shizzo?

It depends. During the work week? Probably 350-500 ml.

Weekends? I can do 750 ml in a day easy. Sometimes more.

This has been going on for 2 1/2 to 3 years straight. Drinking everyday is a problem.

Purge_WTF · « **Reply #14 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:51:17 AM »

Quote from: freespirit on April 06, 2014, 04:41:23 AM

You're a dick.

_aj_ · « **Reply #15 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:52:11 AM »

On a serious side, are you going to go to AA? They do good work.

Cleanest Natural · « **Reply #16 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:52:56 AM »

Good luck with it shizzo.. great decision buddy.. you will be much better without it.

Rascal full · « **Reply #17 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:53:23 AM »

Quote from: Shizzo on April 06, 2014, 04:47:23 AM

It depends. During the work week? Probably 350-500 ml.

Weekends? I can do 750 ml in a day easy. Sometimes more.

This has been going on for 2 1/2 to 3 years straight. Drinking everyday is a problem.

In this case maybe you should have some valium on hand to help with the withdrawals? It can be a roller coaster ride and this will help with the anxiety and cravings.

King Shizzo · « **Reply #18 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:54:23 AM »

Quote from: _aj_ on April 06, 2014, 04:52:11 AM

On a serious side, are you going to go to AA? They do good work.

No. I don't need to be surrounded by junkies and bums.

I will do this on my own. Like Drago says in Rocky 4, "If he dies, he dies".

Getbig is my AA. Seriously.

freespirit · « **Reply #19 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:54:24 AM »

Quote from: Purge_WTF on April 06, 2014, 04:51:17 AM

You're a dick.

You're a sensitive cry baby.

_aj_ · « **Reply #20 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:54:45 AM »

Quote from: Rascal full on April 06, 2014, 04:53:23 AM

In this case maybe you should have some valium on hand to help with the withdrawals? It can be a roller coaster ride and this will help with the anxiety and cravings.

Why get off one horse and get on another?

_aj_ · « **Reply #21 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:55:25 AM »

Quote from: Shizzo on April 06, 2014, 04:54:23 AM

No. I don't need to be surrounded by junkies and bums.

I will do this on my own. Like Drago says in Rocky 4, "If he dies, he dies".

Getbig is my AA. Seriously.

We are not exactly "supportive," as you can see...

King Shizzo · « **Reply #22 on:** April 06, 2014, 04:58:20 AM »

Quote from: _aj_ on April 06, 2014, 04:55:25 AM

We are not exactly "supportive," as you can see...

Sure you are.

This is the perfect place to start a diary like this. Like I said, my own family does not know the severity of my alcoholism.

I don't ask for people to kiss my ass. Say whatever you want in this thread. This is my therapy.

Rascal full · « **Reply #23 on:** April 06, 2014, 05:01:24 AM »

Quote from: _aj_ on April 06, 2014, 04:54:45 AM

Why get off one horse and get on another?

I take your point entirely. Problem is withdrawals can be very dangerous if not properly monitored and in some cases medicated. I wouldn't suggest valium ordinarily but can prevent seizures, etc in long term users.

_bruce_ · « **Reply #24 on:** April 06, 2014, 05:04:41 AM »

Good luck.