if u r suicidal then just do the juice again,its way better then killing yourself. if the juice makes u happy then stay on it,if u r gonna be miserable off it just stay on.lifes to short to deprive yourself man,plus it aint like u r shooting cocaine or something,u r doing it to build up your body,thats why its called ANABOLIC steroids.trust me i can think of other things off hand that u can be doing that r much worse than doing alittle testosterone like u r,the only one who knows the answer to this is yourself,no one else can give u the answer u seek