ya i'm living in the past, what the hell else is a hazbin gonna do:

You looked great and from little I have seen, still do. I would say you do not live in the past but visit it to remind yourself of what for many is a unique accomplishment. Memories can fuel the present and I think that they do for you.
Remember my friend, no one dies alone who has a
LIFETIME of memories with them. Keep making more and share them with those who are not just in them but that are in your heart and soul as well. All the best, brother!