Dear Mike,
We now know you're lovely wife won her class in bikini and has the right look to go pro.
Despite your best efforts you ended up finishing out of the trophies in the middle of large Lt Hvy wt class.
KISS- Keep It Simple - Basic training, good basic food and only use the few drugs that work really well for your body in moderate cycles.
Of course, if you've had with competing , fine. Support your wife and still train in he gym.
You competed and did your best , but maybe it's not really your thing?
There are plenty of other fitness/exercise related sports to get into.
Good luck, Howard