I'm not knocking his death or making light of it. Sorry to hear and hope his family and friends are ok.
But I have to wonder, at what point do you SERIOUSLY realize that your "career" isn't panning out, isn't paying the bills, isn't contributing to a positive future in any way and start having regrets.
Forget winning the O, just cracking the top 3 of the Mr O is a lofty goal, but at least you know when you do you are going to make a decent amount of coin (for what is considered decent in the industry) for a little while. But other than that for those who place out of the top 10 (consistently) what is left? What point do you realize that the damage is far out weighing the rewards?