Oh brother, another bullshit story from the insecure 30-year-old basement dweller.
Honestly, in what way can we assist you in finally pulling the trigger? As obviously you have no desire to actually live in this world, hence the persistent need to withdraw yourself into this whole little fantasyland you've created in your delusional mind. Why you choose to even share your concoctions goes beyond me, as surely you yourself must have realized what a failure you are at some point? As it is blatent to everyone else, including this Jennifer, who doesn't even exist probably.
Hell, you're such a fucking failure and insecure loser even the women you make up in your mind reject you.
How about this; Build yourself a garage, make sure it's airtight, park the truck you bought with other people's money inside, close the garage. Now fire up the engine and pray that you'll be dead before you have to call 'Jennifer' for gasmoney.