Losing tons of money in alts drove me nearly to suicide
Damn, that is sad to hear. I had a friend who had 10m in alts last cycle peak, which fell to around 630K at its low point. He was also, super depressed and considered suicide - even went to counselling. (He made it all back, and then some, doing some crazy and lucky trades). I sympathize as I saw what he went through. It impacted him seriously for around 2 years until be bounced back.
Look, if you truly have conviction, like Obsidian with ETH etc, then you hold, and be prepared to go down with the ship. But if you don't really know what you bought in the first place, Fartcoin, doggie coin, kitty coin, trump coin, or whatever bullshit scam coin - I think you either entirely mentally write it all off, and mentally move on. Or, you be done with it, rip the bandaid off, put all into BTC, and then just DCA into BTC every month from now onwards...
Suicide is never the solution. Reach out to a friend and talk this through. The is more to life than alt tokens, and you can always re-start the wealth accumulation journey (and of course you can't do that if you are no longer here with us).