do you get suppressed testosterone levels after you come off and does that effect your performance? Does your motivation not go in the gutter after coming off?
I'm probably suppressed for a while (my doc barely gives me the numbers anymore) but I can't really tell because we switch from pure strength training to speed and power training and I think it depletes testosterone less somehow. We don't lift heavy during that period because we start working anaerobically We resume "maintenance" strength training but with very low volume (once or twice a week, 5x5 on compound) once the season starts... That depletes testosterone more and when we go below a certain testosterone level, my doctor puts me back on TRT level, to get me back to 900+ the remaining of the season. Depending on how well we do in the playoff (we won the Vertdure cup this year, not much to brag about but it sure was one hell of a party), I might do pct again while I rest for 3-4 weeks before coming on again in the off-season... Basically, I only use when the training mesocycle demands it...
I also start clomid therapy early and we use "baby" dosages (300 mg a week max, 150 test 150 equipoise). More than that and I get crippling shin splints :-( I don't know if using less makes PCT less difficult....
Motivation is not really a factor mainly because I focus on other aspect of training in that period: high intensity intervals, plyos, oly lifting, sled pushing, agility drills etc. I actually like it quite a lot and since I'm shorter than most hockey player (5 foot eight) I have to be in top shape when the training camp starts otherwise I won't make the team.
I totally understand why a bodybuilder would choose never to stop. I couldn't possibly do it myself. Hell, I'm shitting my pants thinking about what will my post "hockey career" will be. I'm just so used to live that kind of life that I probably won't have the motivation to train at all. I'll probably get fat too lol