you know nothing about me
The statement that says it all. The laughable, "I am different, you don't know me", typical of gen X and Yers who believe that they are special and have everything figured out.
Many like you have come and gone, you are no special snowflake.
You just want others to share in your own desires, so that you are not alone. And that is the point, isn't it?
In your quiet time, while you are shooting up those drugs, you feel the loneliness of shame, want, and the desire for attention from someone who sees you not just in the physical.
And that is partly why you engage in this banter, because you seek attention. The attention that you don't get from schmoes/lovers, who only see you as a bag of muscles.
No, you are just like Tbombz, searching for acceptance and attention that has been missing.