He had fun in life, so it wasn't all misery for him. He had fun here on Getbig and other places he mentioned, he had fun making Photoshops and getting reactions from them. He undoubtedly had fun in many ways.
Anyone buying and using drugs from most anywhere, though, including the stuff had on the "dark web" which RP mentioned getting, should know there are drugs out there which can break a person's mind and cause that person to want to self-destruct. So it becomes a race to either get over such overwhelming feelings or do something permanent which cannot be undone.
If he were here, no doubt he would agree. So be careful what you do.