Yeah, you're the only person who knows anything. No one else.
You're a once-in-a-lifetime fool, Mr. Turbin.
The personal problems, daddy issues, frustration and misery,
The mental illness, insecurity and paranoid obsession,
The confusion, bewilderment and intellectual deficit.
Always remember; the boogeyman did NOT create the above noted issues.
Pull yourself up by the bootstraps and try to get better.
hope this helps!