You're not doing yourself any favors here - the more you incoherently rant, the more you expose yourself as a fraud. You summed up your experience of prison perfectly: prison was 'easy time' for you because you knew how to act and adapt. Everything you portray yourself to be is just that - an act. You've been doing it for so long now that you might actually believe it. Why would somebody without 'the fear gene', i.e., a psychopath, have to alter their behaviour or use guitar strings for needles rather than just go to the prison doctor and say you fell over? You did it because you're a sycophant and you wanted to impress people. You know who you can and can't fuck with so you pick your targets carefully. The fact that you've been out of prison for so long shows just how deeply the experience affected you, given that you never shut up about it.
As for turning to heroin in order to cope with the pain of having your neck, back, and hand all 'fucked up', why not just stop lifting weights for a bit? A guy who doesn't care what others think wouldn't have any issue with losing some size and resting up for a while, rather than turning to one of the most addictive drugs on earth because he can't get to a doctor for ten days lol. You're so wrapped up in this identity you've created for yourself that you'd rather become a junkie than risk your tough-guy image. Now look at you. Allegedly crippled, yet still boasting about how you're a cage fighter, posting endless amounts of selfies on social media of you lifting weights, and still claiming to have spent thousands of dollars on your drug habit when you could have just taken a rest for a few weeks lol.
So much bullshit in this post I may have to power up a laptop to reply.
Ill address a few things starting near the bottom.
Posting endless selfies? Lol I may post a pic once every few weeks lately... Maybe once a month... Added up since a year ago.. Year and a half maybe, I've probably posted 8 selfies. Use facts, idiot. ... Just re-read and noticed you mentioned selfies of me lifting weights? Lol sure buddy. Like I said, bitch, use facts.
And take time off? Can you read? I've said repeatedly I've been off since probably Feb/march, aside from a cpl workouts in April and a cpl in august maybe, and a cpl in Oct.... Was off the whole time except for a cpl test shots in august, not even trt. And lose some size? Lol idiot. I go up and down from 215-235 usually. For instance i was 232 about 3 weeks ago, and I'm down to 216 now. I could be down to 205 by Monday and 2 weeks later maybe 3, be back up to 230.
... Ill return to this nonsense. I've got shit to do
