I'll never go see a therapist
I can't afford it, I don't need one and plus being of Italian descent my pride won't allow me to go to one
that prefaced- I will use this forum to further spill my guts about that kinda recent episode of my life
"emotional surrogate"....I don't know if that is a actual term....however, it is a term that I came up with on my own
I used her to feel emotions that men do feel for women that....emotions that are outside of the primal shit that comes with animalistic fucking
she wanted a husband....I never asked her to leave her boyfriend because even though I was "using her" emotionally I knew that there was a line.....and that "line" was not to ruin her current relationship because I love being single and I didn't want to ruin her life by asking her to leave Assholeface (who she has been dating for a couple of years) knowing full well that I would never marry her
I don't want to marry anyone
fact is---I already have a mother and I don't need a wife
plus, I don't believe in marriage
I'm blithering at the moment