About a year ago I got dumped by my long term girlfriend just before we were due to go on holiday to Berlin, I'd had a similar thing happen before and always regretted not going on the holiday so this time I decided I was just gonna go on my own. I had a ... very mixed week there because the city is amazing but I was emotionally in a right fucking state. I didn't meet many people like I normally do on holiday and by the end (and to this day I guess) I was filled with so much self loathing, but that's not really the point of the story.
I'm bisexual but have mostly dated girls (for no real reason other than convenience) but I thought Berlin could be a great place to check out the gay scene. One night after a few (many) beers I went to a gay sauna, stripped to a towel, and went to see what was on offer. I'm a young guy in relatively good shape so almost as soon as I entered there were a couple of older guys following me round but I wasn't interested. There were a few other young, hot guys but most also had a trail of old men following them, or were already fucking. As it was my first time, and in a country where I didn't know the language, it got awkward very quickly and I decided to cut my losses, go jack off in a booth with porn playing and just go home.
I'd only been in the booth for a few seconds when I felt something, looked down and there was a beckoning hand sticking through a previously unseen gloryhole. I figured it most be one of the older guys who was following me round and saw me go in but I thought fuck it, I'm here now, and I stuck my dick through. And it felt fucking AMAZING. I don't know if it was the anonymity, the heightened sensation because I wasn't looking at anything, or if this guy was just that good but it was probably the best blowjob I'd ever had and I was getting as close as I could to this wall, balls sticking through and all.
And then things went wrong. I felt some movement and then an intense pressure as my balls were squashed up against the wall on the other side and I couldn't move them. I panicked having no idea what the guy was doing until I realised that it was his legs trapping my balls because he'd turned around without my realising and shoved my dick up his ass. With no protection. In a fucking gay sauna in fucking Berlin. I'd never been so scared in my life knowing that this random guy would do such a thing like that, I'm pretty sure I wasn't the first person he'd done it to so I was effectively fucking every ass in that sauna. Immediately after cumming I got the fuck out of there as quickly as I could and basically ran back to my hostel, didn't touch anyone for the last few days of the holiday, went straight to an STD clinic as soon as I got home and completely broke down when I told the nurse, who shamed the fuck out of me.
After a few weeks of shitting myself and locking myself away from everyone I know I could get a proper HIV test which thank fuck came back negative and I was so relieved I almost cried at the nurse again, and I've not been with a guy in any way since.
