I studied drug addiction on a professional level for 8 years. Shit drove me insane. Actually i could'nt give a fuck what people take anymore. Take what you need to feel ok. But dont get overthepoint so you die from it. Everyone takes something. Maybe 38% get it presricbed like myself but others dont. You have some damn reason with it youll be fine. 18 friends already dead...
I know heroin addicts who've been using for 20+ years who somehow still have veins. no way I would've went 20years. not that I would've died, but I'd be broke. guys using 20+ yrs weren't using 1/3 what I was using and they'd still nod-out whereas i'd NEVER nod out, even at 6g a day (believe me, i'd be MUCH happier if I could've gotten by with 2g a day like everybody else in rehab. would've saved me about $60k).
I also know meth addicts (a client of mine in particular... is that proper grammar? I never really checked..anyway) who've been using meth for 20+ years. I didn't even know meth, well crystal meth, was around 20+yrs ago.. maybe I forget how old i'm getting, anyways.. i'm not a stimulant person so I cant relate, but I also know meth addicts who would NO WAY have lasted 20yrs, not even 3yrs before they had to quit (rehab or jail or just quit... it'f fucking meth for fucks sake, there's no physical withdrawal. suck it up buttercup. worst case scenario go to a psych and get a script for Adderall every month like one of my ex's did for the rest of your life). but meth really fucks with most peoples brain chemistry, much moreso than opiates (I actually don't know any opiate addicts who've experienced any brain chem issues. usually once acute withdrawal is done, they're back to normal. just a lil 'bored', of course there's always PAWS as well, but still)
and coke? they're not usually as spun-out as meth addicts, possibly because coke is a dopamine reuptake inhibitor (Just like Welbutrin folks! in case you wanna try it. lol) whereas meth just floods the brain with dopamine... whatever
point is..
oh wait, alcohol! one thing I hate about AA is the old timers talking about their "20yr drinking career's " and shit... the way I drink, there's no way i'd make 20yrs. how long can a body tolerate 2L vodka a day before pancreas and liver go to shit... then you have Encephalopathy (wet-brain or whatever the slang is ).
so, point is, some ppls body chemistry just tolerates certain things better than others. like my alcoholic meth addict client (who's currently on the run from the... nevermind in case the alphabets are reading lol.. that may be a story for youtube. fuck it i'm not involved). her mind was shit, but she wasn't spun out. just dumb. and physically she was sorta ok. her heart was probably shit, but who knows. one thing's for sure, her tolerance was enormous.. me personally, only reason I stopped is because I got tired of spending $6k a month on heroin. I mean for fuck sake I was already using 6g/day, where do I go from there? 8g? 10g? ever heard of anybody using 10g a day? much less 6g? in the hospital I was being given 400+mg oxycodone/day plus 24mg diluadid/day and I got more work done in that hospital bed in a month on that shit than I did in the 6 months previous with just my phone, paper and a pen. like the meth lady, my body/brain chemistry just tolerates the shit well.(mind you the only time I ever "felt" anything on those doses, was for about 3mins after a 2mg diluadid shot. never once felt "high" or even drowsy)
but with most of that shit, when does it end or how much is enough? there's always gonna be diminishing returns and the juice is't gonna be worth the squeeze/
