lol spaghetti dick... you are taking this religion shit way too serial mate....
You live in a lie. 
What lie is that? And of course you can defend your position, correct? What is the source of your assertion?
What keeps you from God? Bad church experience? Not raised in a Godly home? Lose loved ones to disease or tragedy? Horrific military experience where you witnessed the evil of people firsthand?
What knowledge and experience of God and scripture do you have? What materials have you studied? Have you humbly submitted to God as outlined in scripture and repented of your sin?
What is the source of your atheism? How do you know there is no God? Science? Greek philosophy? College courses?
Maybe influenced by Dawkins, Hitchens, Harris, Dennett, Aron Ra, Dillahunty, Carrier, Krauss, Hawking, Ehrman, Rand, etc...?
Perhaps just the posting of of random youtube atheists? Coffee house conversations shape your position?
Hate being held accountable? Prefer pornography, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, partying, adultery, fornication, etc...?
Or are you just a hit and run artist?