I didn’t know he’d killed himself.
Balance of his mind must of been fcuked up.
IMHO, talking back and forth with him for so long, I really think it was the Lyme disease that really
took it's toll. It took a while before he was even correctly diagnosed. The debilitating joint pain, crippling fatigue, sometimes part of his face would be paralyzed and made him looked like he had a stroke. And there's no cure. It was never going to end. And his home life wasn't particularly supportive.
It came as a tragic shock to me when I heard he commited suicide. I was surprised at how much it affected me and the emotional toll it took. He really made such a positive and lasting impression on me.
I was surprised at the bond I felt with him and the positive impression that he made on me even though we never met in person -- something that I had planned to do for sure.
Always planning on doing things.... for sure.