He hates himself now and wants to die but only on his terms. One supposes that he thinks it's somehow romantic (schmoemantic?) if he is remembered as going out his way, i.e., lifting light weight baby. He wants to have people murmur in hushed, reverent tones, "At least he died doing what he loved"...No. He died being a fucking idiot and the largest thing on him killed him. No...It sure as hades ain't this 'tards brain. It's his ego.
I look forward to reading of his demise from "congenital stupidism". What a fucking maroon. How any sane individual can idolize what is essentially a black Bane without a brain. FTN.