try full-contact fighting and submission wrestling in prison for money for quite a few years.. fighting with broken bones and ignoring injuries (can't get a cast or stiches without getting put in the 'hole', so you learn how to sew your own cuts shut with sharpened guitar string and thin 'beading line').. no real 'rules', and where the solution to every problem is murder.. literally.. for some guys. so long as your willing to go further and harder than the other guy, you won't get fucked with.. but then you end up getting jumped by Indians and kneegrows and you gotta learn to "do your worst, fast and first".
takes some effort to lose that mentality when you get out though.
You realize you're projecting yourself into my posts. If YOU haven't, couldn't, or wouldn't, do such a thing that I recall and have written about, than SURELY nobody else can, has, or.would. your eagle is fucking pathetic we hurt buy stories of shit that I have forgotten. If you would ask me today what happened with that car accident at the course of America with homeboys brains all over my arms I will tell you word for word, as I have with more than one person on this board over the phone.
Wesley, you are biting off more than you can chew. I don't give a flying fuck about you and I can't remember anything about you because I really do not care today, nor did I care back in 2005 on muscle mayhem which you we're so what's the word,?, What the fuck ever .... you wanted me to remember you as if you were a somebody and you expected me to remember you as a somebody but, you unfortunately are a nobody. And junkies like you (I realize you don't start sentences with "and" , , you build resentments towards people who, (what's the word)....
Maybe you're jealous of even though there's nothing to be jealous about. Maybe you're jealous of the way I can relate events in my life in two words and you somehow turn that into me being "proud" of certain things I've done or been through.
You, like a few others, I think that the things I say aren't true, yet people like you, who who's who's space in your head I occupy so much come off or so so little, and you allow it. Even though it brings up these resentments in you that are going to drive you right back to smoking and snorting and shooting meth, because you are like me. You somehow think that you know what $120,000 will buy x amount of heroin or whatever dot-dot-dot that tells me exactly that you are and ask meth junkie. In your own words. I was never a junkie. Keep that in mind. Me and you,? We are nothing alike. Look at the words you still spew the grammar there's you still use the term "point blank period."...(you have absolutely no clue how absolutely fucking stupid you sound, not only when you type it, but I imagine you see that term using your mouth more then once a week, if not once a day. That term, saying that those words? You sound like a fucking imbecile and you don't even realize... And "Tough wannabe ass thug" (all in camps by the way on your part,)
I'm juggling a few things at once right now, as you're not all that important to me ,b (I get it. I don't give a flying fuck about you, while you on the other hand, go to sleep every night thinking about what you're going to say to me when given the chance)... So whatever I say, causes you to develop a great resentment towards me, while it doesn't seem to have that same effect on anybody else here, - two or three other people who have oh, well "mental illness", i guess we'll call it.
