Anniversaries and babies kind of have similar themes. That is when you have more than a business arrangement with their mothers. 
How are the family courts in the USA?
In Canada, they were horrible to men until 2007. It's only relatively recently that they started to be fair.
Now they are straight up 50/50. They are fair to men.
Took a while.
But can you blame me for not wanting to get married or be close to a woman, given what bullshit politics there are in family courts?
It was around 2004 that I realized I couldn't get married because family courts wouldn't treat me fairly. I couldn't have predicted that they would improve here in Canada in 2007 - and I only learned recently that this happened. Which makes sense - it took a decade of family courts being fair before it became clear that they were going to stay fair.
They could have changed, and I would have still had reason not to trust them, for a few years.
I do trust family courts now...I'm not sure if I would get married anyway, though. Would I make a life with the mother of my new child? Yes, I would. But even then, I have reasons to be skeptical of relationships.
For example, in your case - and I say this with all due respect - but you were married for 52 years, but had some homosexual fantasies during that time? So...isn't it obvious that everyone in relationships is attracted to other people?
I always wanted to be with more than one woman. Not necessarily 100 women. But...this will be the third woman I have a child/children with, and I attempted with two others unsuccessfully [one had PCOS, sadly].
I just think relationships are somewhat contrary to human nature. I like the idea...but it's sad to me when I see people not just break up, but break up and hate each other.
Take Wiggs for example - he ended things with his wife, but did so on good terms. Not everyone can say they are still on good terms with their wife like that. I'm glad Wiggs was able to end things on a good note with his woman, but I have seen so many examples of that not happening.
Take a look at this 1991 episode of Unsolved Mysteries - "The War of the Depues". Sad stuff. I'm not saying relationships always end like this...but this is outright tragic! Can you blame me for being apprehensive about entering into a long-term relationship?
I have seen literally the perfect couples fall apart. So I simply went by the reasoning that if people who want relationships far more than me, and who are fundamentally decent and committed people, can't make it work - why would I?
If I failed a math test, I would expect normal people to think that type of math is hard. When I say that Partial Differential Equations is a difficult math course - when my epic strength is computational mathematics - I would expect people to say "That must be a hard course". Because it is!
Relationships are hard. I hope that things will work out for me, now that I am committed to being with the mother of my baby coming up...but, you never know...
Check out that sad episode of Unsolved Mysteries here. The episode starts exactly at the 28:00 mark:
