Good for comparison actually thanks. I think I'm holding more water than I should but my diet is LOL diet? For lunch today I had a giant cup o noodles and 14 chicken nuggets with syrup on them. I eat waffles and eggs almost every day sometimes twice a day (I should call them sticks of butter with bits of waffles swimming in syrup lol)
ah what to do what to do...if I competed now lets say I started prep tomorrow I have ~30lbs of fat to lose I think. I would be in shape around mmm 195-200 realistically. So if I can get to 275, I would diet down to 230ish. So 275 is my goal, and i'll go from there (assuming I can get that heavy but my appetite comes and goes, some days I am so hungry I want to vomit and I get 9 meals in some days like today I barely eat twice. I kind of go with what my body is telling me, and I have no problem gaining weight. but 275 is way out there for me, I don't know if I can sustain the food intake to keep it going. might have to do weight gainers when I can afford to.)
also my backup gym is apparently drying up on me. I got so pissed when I found out yesterday I chucked my phone at the wall and it did not survive. I was on track to hit 405 on squats Monday and I am super pissed and a bit depressed because I don't have a barbell or a squat rack or power rack here at the house. im really stressing, I had been 110% that I was going to compete this year and then dislocated my shoulder Christmas eve, down for 6 weeks, got 5 weeks of training in and gained 30lbs and I was hospitalized and was down another 4 weeks. got 2-3 weeks in the gym and wham my gym closed. I started lifting at my friends shop wham the city came down on him and he won't let anyone there that's not on payroll. when does this bullshit end?
? ffs only in the last month was I able to do back squats because my shoulder hurt too much (ya'll who never had shoulder problems have no idea, it's a blessing to be able to rotate your shoulders back like you do when you do back squats trust me. I never realized until I COULDN'T FCKING DO THEM what a blessing squats are)
but I have faith in God and I know He is in control and eventually things will work themselves out according to His Will and I am blessed to be alive and with a body that can workout so im not tripping too too badly.
